It's been a long time

So long since I posted anything here.

Been doing the garden, my friend Alis came to stay and made me a vegetable patch. I now have potatoes, pumkins, squash, purple sprouting, red cabbage, peas, french beans, kidney beans, beetroot, lettuce and carrots. Several different mint plants, thyme and some flowers. At last my garden seems to be coming to life instead of being drowned by weeds.

Haven't been swimming with Alex the last 2 weeks as I have a cold . Play group has finished for a few weeks as Lisa, who runs it, has had her baby.

Still no luck with the potty training. Plus Alex has a bad case of the Terrible Twos.

I'm ok today

I seem to have 'woken up' this week.

We spent the weekend in King's Lynn, shopping, swimming and eating.

I spent all day yesterday catching up with the washing.

Today Clare and myself went to the swimming baths at the end of my road, to see about mother and toddler swimming sessions. We have decided to go every Tuesday with our boys.

We then went shop for some groceries. In the afternoon we went to mother and toddler group at the library.

Tonight I cooked Ross and myself pork chop, mash potato, peas and stuffing.

Pete's funeral tomorrow

Had the vicar, Jay Phelps, round this afternoon . He is very nice and is a biker. He said he will wear his biker gear to conduct the service. Very fitting as Pete loved motorbikes. It will be a Celtic / spititual ceremony with poems and music. We have chosen Steve Millerband - The Joker, for walking in with. Pink Floyd - Wish you were here. And Leonard Skynard - Freebird.


I'm just taking time as it comes. I seem to find myself wondering around in a dream , forgetting where I've put things. Still can't believe Pete won't walk through my door again, Xmas will be hard without him here.

My children are being fantastic in their own ways.

I received a card from the N.U.U.C unit at Addensbrookes today. That was so comforting to me.

The local Leicester newspaper are doing a story on Pete in tomorows edition. I will post the website here.

The last 3 days

I think I have been on automatic pilot these last three days. I've even helped the stressed out nurses , with patients who have brain injuries that kept trying to get out of bed and take their feeding tubes out their noses.

I slept most the time at Petes side, my head on a pillow and my hand in his. I stroked his skin that was so hot due to the temperature of 40 degrees. The nurses brushed his teeth and wash and tended to turning him from one side to the other.

When the time came I didnt feel scared, I felt a rush of relief and peace. I comforted Ray and Craig. I havent cried much yet, I expect I will.

Stressed out

I've spent alot of time thinking today about the Pete I grow up with.

I used to be the annoying little sister who followed him everywhere. I remember I got on his nerves when he was playing Monopoly with his friends (he would have been about 15, I was 9). I was standing by the living room door being annoying when he slam the door shut. Only when I looked at the door did I realise my finger was still in it. Blood everywhere and my Mum going mad at Pete. My fingernail still doesnt grow properly on that finger. A constant reminder of the fun days of childhood and my big brother.

Me looking rough and Alex looking cute as always

This is me and Alex my son.

Very upset

Its been a very hard day for me today after hearing the news about Pete from the doctor.

Clare and Kyle came round, we took the terrible 2 little angels really) on the park for a run around in the afternoon. Then we went to the library, then shopping with my son Craig (16).

Tonight has been hard, I keep getting upset. Matt has been a rock to me, so have my children.